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unmotivated to do much of anything. not showering til 3pm. staring blankly at nothing. forgetful. misplace things. walk under water. heart beats a little slower. good thing breathing is involuntary, i'd probably forget to do that too. can't sleep. back constantly screams at me. don't talk much. delete texts before they fully exist. mumble. sit at the top of the stairs leaned up against the wall. listen to the purr. only comfort sometimes. eyes never fully open. chipped blue glass. reflect. don't believe.